Saturday, October 29, 2011

cepat btol berubah

smlm die bg ak harapan,,tp hari ni die da brubah... ape yg dijanjikan smlm langsung trkubur mcm tu je..nmpk sgt die mempermainkn prasaan ak... tak sgka mcm tu prangai die..tp ak still tkleh lupe smlm.. INDAH gler... skrg hnya tggal knangan.. n ak harus coba melupakan die... hrp ak tabah hadapi dugaan ni... mybe ade yg lbih baik utk ak d mase depan nty..juz sabar je..psti berbaloi..ade hikmah d sebalik kejadian ni...

Thursday, October 27, 2011

DELETING Him from my HEART...

touching la,,, asyik2 hati ni ingt die jer,, asal bkak fb, msty tgk die nye fb jgk...dah sebati dah jdnye...cam stalker dah ak ni.. cam org dah tk normal.. taktaw la nape jd cmni.. knape la ak msty suke die???sumpah, die je yg dpt buka hati ak.. tp ak tk suke ak suke die... sblm ni, klu llaki lain hnsem pn juz suke tgk cmtu jer.. tp klu die, rase cam nk dpt je.. klu la die blh dibeli, mmg ak akn beli je even mahal... prumpamaan je 2..nk ckpnye suke sgt n prasaan ingin memiliki tu sgt kuat... ak cube sdarkn diri stiap kali ak ingt die.. ak tak perfect, ak tk sesuai utk org cam die.. die pn bkn pndang ak..sbelah mata pn tak pndang..huhu, Ya Allah, sedihnye... tlg la tutup blik hati ak..mmg la prasaan suke n cinta ni lumrah bg setiap hamba Mu Ya Allah, tp Kau bukakanlah hati ak utk org yg suka kat aku... Kau tutuplah hati ak untuk die Ya Allah, krn die tkkan suke ak..mustahil Ya Allah... ak taknak ade prasaan mcm ni.. pedih..sakit.. pedih sgt!!! sakit sgt!!! kdg2 nk mnangis pn ade.. patot la ade org yg sggup suicide @ pkai bomoh krn CINTA... bru ak fhm skrg cane prasaan tuh... mmg sgt pahit utk ditelan.. rse cam tkkan ade org pn yg paham perasaan ni.. mmg TAKDE pn org paham prasaan ak skrg..hanya Allah je yg taw.. taktaw nk bt cane lg dah... tp ak prlu brtindak cepat spy hati ini tak trus mnyukai die.. 1st of all, stop looking him at his FB.. ingt nk remove je die dr fren list ak.. tp nty msti la plik kan??? kot2 die prasan ak remove die... ok, klu tak dpt remove pn mke sure yg ak tkkan bkak fb die lg..ignore je pape yg die post, kt wall die @ kt group... then slowly lupekn die, klu ingt die je trus istighfar ke or whatever la, asalkn otak n minda will stop thinking about him... 3rd, avoid from looking at him or talking to him... bt biase2 je..klu die tgur jawab je.. n be urself.. don't be another person... btpe simpan prasaan kat org yg tkde hati kat kite kan???? lastly, when dah post ni, means that ak tkleh pikir2 n amik taw sal die lg dah..lantak la ape pn nk jd kat die.. don't ever SMS him.. i hope thiss will helping me a lot in build up my heart to become more strong and stronger by all days...

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Aku Benci Die-Sumpah!!!

ya Allah,, serius ak dah putus hrpn utk brharap lg... ak tkkan suke mane2 llki lg dah.. n ak tknk mane2 llki suke ak..please ya Allah..tlong sgt2, tlong tutup pntu hati ak utk mane2 llki.. ak tknk trsungkur sbb bisikan syaitan..tlg la keraskan hati hamba mu ini... knapa msti bgini jd nye??? i hate!!! really2 hate this feeling... bile org suke ak, ak tolak, ak mmg tk suke sbb ak susah nk suke org,, tp bile ak suke someone, sllalunye org tu dah brpunye n what so ever la... serius, mmg sllu mcm tu..tp sllu ak tk rase mcm mne skunk ni... knape die dpt trik prhatian ak??? kuat sgt rasenye... mcm menarik2 sgt n merentap2 hati ak..smpaikn menitis air mata ak sbb rase mcm die da brpunye @ da suke org lain mybe..mne ade org tak couple skunk ni kan?? ak tak suke sgt2 perasaan ni..benci... ak tak suke brharap... n ak taknak brhrp lg dah... ya allah, knape msti mcm ni jdnye??? tlg la pdamkan perasaan ak pd die.. ak tknk couple.. ak tknk ade hbungan uh.. ak tak caye llaki.. die dh buat ak suke kt die... tlg la bg ak bnci die... tnjukkan la ssuatu yg blh bt ak tak suke die..beriknlah kesedaran pada aku...sedarkan la diri ak..please Ya Allah,jgn seksa batin ak... jgn seksa hati n perasaan ak... org baik cam die mmg tk sesuai utk ak.. hncur btol hati ak ble tgk fb die.. ak brhrap sgt die dah ade mkwe... yg same course ng die..,means dua2 baik...
ak tknak ak syg psngn ak lbih dr 'die' syg ak sbb nty ak tkot dtinggalkn n dikecewakan.... sbb ak bnyk kekurangan... snang je org nk brubah hati... tkde gune nye ak mnangis sbb llki pg2 buta nih..dah2,,STOP please.. p tido lg baik..tkyah pning2kn otak ko echah nk pikir sume uh... terima la ngan hati trbuka...please... "i hate ***".. remember always echah!!!!